I can relate to so much of this article. My husband had never been ill until he got the flu and doctor prescribed questionable meds. He died about 6 weeks after that, collapsed in front of me as we were walking to the car, fell into the snow. I inquired about the side effects and was told that all drugs have side effects. They would not listen to anything. I wish I could turn back time. We never talked about what if...I assumed that if there was anything wrong, he would be cured. I guess he was cured, but not in the way I hoped. Doctors bury their mistakes and the widow is left to pick up the pieces. So sorry for your loss and I DO understand your pain.