I read your article three times and can relate to much of it. The lonely bits, as I am widowed and in the house alone. No children to help me or miss. You will find yourself, but it takes time. I am getting better and stronger at being alone, eating out and shopping. The sadness and grief is Always there. I also have tinnitus. Some days I don't talk to anyone but the dog. Hang in there. You will develop new ideas moving forward. Being alone is better than a bad marriage. Prayers to you.