Lizzie, I am so sorry for your loss and heartache. I am a silver haired widow. I guess I am a matron, as I am older than you. Not wearing black unless it's a tee shirt with skinny jeans. People who have never experienced grief do not understand. I was one of those, but now I feel so deeply the sadness and pain of so many. I see life in a different light. I will never be "happy" again. The house is beyond empty and quiet. I never turn off the TV. I feel very lost and abandoned. Without prayer, I would have nothing at all. I believe my husband was misdiagnosed, as the meds that were given caused many side effects and when I tried to talk to the cardiologist, I was told that all drugs have side effects. He dropped dead in front of me 3 weeks later. Doctors bury their mistakes and shrug their shoulders. They are home with their families. My life has been ripped apart. I thought they were going to help him. My questions were not well received and dismissed. A white coat and stethoscope does not a doctor make! I do not trust anything they say. It's all about the money. The Bible says there is a time for everything, including life and death. We are all going to die. We should feel confident in the medical profession. I have spoken to lawyers for medical misdiagnosis.

It's so very hard on those left behind to pick up the pieces. Life changed in the blink of an eye and trying to find the direction to continue on is challenging. Please take care of yourself as your life continues on. Thank you for writing your articles. You expressed in them how I have been feeling and it's comforting to hear from someone who truly understands loss and grief. I look forward to more of your insight, as daily I am struggling with loneliness and grief. Take care.