Your article really touched me. Just last week at this time I was making tea for my husband and did not know that he would be dead in 2 hours.
Grief is a personal thing and no one can tell you when it should be over. I am so glad for you that you found your life partner. I will never have another one, I am sure. I am older than you are and that makes a difference. I would like a male friendship of an older gentleman. I feel like in the role of life that men and women each have a part to play. There are now words that I will never say again. Like “We” or “Us” or “My husband”. I’ve lost my everything partner.
You are right, people get uncomfortable around you because they don’t know what to say. Making small talk is very hard. The internal grief is massive. Until one experiences it they can’t really grasp what you are going thru.
Death is a part of life and eventually those that didn’t understand your pain will have a chance to experience it first hand. Then they can decide how long they should grieve.
I am so glad you wrote this. I felt like I was talking to a friend who truly understands.